Okay so everyone and their neighbor has a blog, so I decided to join the 21st century and create one of my own. Not exactly sure what I am doing so here goes.
I decided to name my blog "Reflections of a Middle-Aged Mother", because, although I don't feel middle aged, reality is that.... I am. It's not that I mind being middle aged, I think there is a lot to be said for being forty, ok....forty one. I think this is the greatest time of life. I don't change diapers anymore, I deal with relatively rational people, and I am much more comfortable in my own skin. I really don't care what people think of me (not that I ever have) but now I just choose to believe everyone loves me, and generally I don't feel I have any one that I really dislike. It's a comfortable place.
Don't get me wrong, I loved my babies and look forward to grandkids, but there is something to be said for having the perfect day.....Going to a movie with a friend, then to lunch, only to top it off with a pedicure. For so long in my life I went for months (like 8 or 9) without even a hair cut, because someone needed new shoes or jeans or we barely had enough for diapers. So this is good. I feel like I have part of me back, and that feels really great.
I think it really hit me when I took Ty to college, and we were walking around Sea World, just him and I. I thought to myself....Wow we've kind of come full circle. He's watching out for me making sure that I get on and off the rides ok and giving me his sweatshirt when I was cold. It wasn't that long ago that I was wiping snot from his little nose and kissing his scraped knees. It is the most rewarding thing to watch your kids walk into life, confident that they are whole people, ready to take on the world. Knowing that you did all you could to give them the tools to make it in this big scary place and it turned out pretty good.
SO ladies being middle aged isn't all that bad. Yeah, you sag a little more than you did 10 years ago and your a little more slow getting out of bed, but all and all it's a really rewarding place to be. :)